Friday, December 14, 2012

First night.

Tonight is my first night in my new home. Today was stressful... filled with moving and ending time spent with family, but starting a new chapter all the same.

Moving as often as I have in life, you begin to feel a sense of the world closing in around you after awhile. Sometimes it not even noticed until a move is completed for me.

Leaving the Air Force when I did, was the best thing for my family and. I know it for sure now. The changes which have taken place over the course of the last 8 months have been tremendous, but all of the right nuances, stayed the same.

I have been deeply troubled with worry these past couple of weeks. So much so that I stopped converting my thoughts into written word. Something which is rare for me.

Not many people know it, but I keep detailed records of activities and time spent. I do this, to prevent my PTSD from having a detrimental effect on my overall functionality.

You see, I feel as though I will never fully push past it sometimes. And I know that the day I quit fighting it, is the day that I will never forget. The little monsters that traveled back from time spent at war are at bay at this moment, but it is a humble man in my opinion that always remembers what humbled him in the first place.

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